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he claims he knows what is going on. It is absurd. If talking to guys means i have a boyfriend, it is damn bloody ridiculous. For goodness sake, i'm 16! If i cant go out its perfectly okay because i dont mind. If i cant use the com, its also okay. When i say i want freedom i dont mean that. What i want was never understood by others. Yeah fine everything i do is wrong and them right. Its not i dont want to get a job but there is no job that i can do now! I searched alright.
Dont just think i'm going out to play all the time. What's wrong with acting my age? I can never get to enjoy what people my age are doing. From young, i have never belonged to a certain group of popular people. I'm always alone. My life's like isolated. I tried fittin in but i just cannot. And when i can, my family opposes to it. I feel so misunderstood. People treat me as though i was a weirdo or an alien. My life is so corrupted.
Monday 5th Feb
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I'm bored cooped up at home. Will be getting results tmr. Wish myself luck! <3
Dont think there will be a chance for me and KY to be together. Maybe i'll meet a better candidate when i get into poly. Hopefully. Thinking whether i should just get my hair cut. But still thinking about him. =x
March 2nd
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Having a migraine now. feel giddy. Yesterday accompanied KY to see a doctor in the afternoon. After that went to Vonne's house. Watch a little television while she prepared and off to town. Went Wisma becuase she wanted to get a Flesh Imp jacket. She phoned Chee Fun and we made our way to Food Republic. She's obsessed with him! haha. We got there and she was feeling so shy so i got Cindy and Melissa to help me. Leon was also there. The whole thing was hilarious! I nearly fainted giggling. LOL. Chee Fun's face was so funny! After the incident we went 77th street and i bought myself a shirt. It was more of a dress and had this soft flowy fabric.
Today stucked at home. Woke up in the morning and saw KY's text but i replied late. Was supposed to meet up with Guo Wei but he too fell ill. Then talked to Adrian. Adrian asked me to go Yishun Safra to play pool but was very lazy. Then KY texted me and asked me to go there too. Coincidental ! Mapled the whole day instead. I didnt want to eat but KY made me. Didnt text until around 7plus because my headache worsened. Samuel called me at night and he was crying. Sighs. Breaking up of couples.
Feb 28th
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No more breakdowns. Both parties are wrong. I'm sorry too. No more hard feelings. Treat people with respect and they'll respect you. Never make promises for promises are meant to be broken.
Life damn bloody sucks when you have unreasonable parents. Kill me then! why bother giving birth to me in the first place ? Why bring me out to this world to suffer ? I speculate i did alot of wrong doings in my past life. This is my retribution and i'm just beginning to get a taste of it. But hey look, i respected you. I kept quiet long enough before i lost my temper. Give me a break.
Feb 25th
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Saw a particular someone during my peaceful swim. Saw him looked at my direction.
Waited for KY to message me the whole day :( texted him around 3plus but he fell asleep after his second text. Not sure if i'm falling for *ahem* but he is a very nice guy. end here. nights
he claims he knows what is going on. It is absurd. If talking to guys means i have a boyfriend, it is damn bloody ridiculous. For goodness sake, i'm 16! If i cant go out its perfectly okay because i dont mind. If i cant use the com, its also okay. When i say i want freedom i dont mean that. What i want was never understood by others. Yeah fine everything i do is wrong and them right. Its not i dont want to get a job but there is no job that i can do now! I searched alright.
Dont just think i'm going out to play all the time. What's wrong with acting my age? I can never get to enjoy what people my age are doing. From young, i have never belonged to a certain group of popular people. I'm always alone. My life's like isolated. I tried fittin in but i just cannot. And when i can, my family opposes to it. I feel so misunderstood. People treat me as though i was a weirdo or an alien. My life is so corrupted.
Monday 5th Feb
...................
I'm bored cooped up at home. Will be getting results tmr. Wish myself luck! <3
Dont think there will be a chance for me and KY to be together. Maybe i'll meet a better candidate when i get into poly. Hopefully. Thinking whether i should just get my hair cut. But still thinking about him. =x
March 2nd
............
Having a migraine now. feel giddy. Yesterday accompanied KY to see a doctor in the afternoon. After that went to Vonne's house. Watch a little television while she prepared and off to town. Went Wisma becuase she wanted to get a Flesh Imp jacket. She phoned Chee Fun and we made our way to Food Republic. She's obsessed with him! haha. We got there and she was feeling so shy so i got Cindy and Melissa to help me. Leon was also there. The whole thing was hilarious! I nearly fainted giggling. LOL. Chee Fun's face was so funny! After the incident we went 77th street and i bought myself a shirt. It was more of a dress and had this soft flowy fabric.
Today stucked at home. Woke up in the morning and saw KY's text but i replied late. Was supposed to meet up with Guo Wei but he too fell ill. Then talked to Adrian. Adrian asked me to go Yishun Safra to play pool but was very lazy. Then KY texted me and asked me to go there too. Coincidental ! Mapled the whole day instead. I didnt want to eat but KY made me. Didnt text until around 7plus because my headache worsened. Samuel called me at night and he was crying. Sighs. Breaking up of couples.
Feb 28th
..........
No more breakdowns. Both parties are wrong. I'm sorry too. No more hard feelings. Treat people with respect and they'll respect you. Never make promises for promises are meant to be broken.
Life damn bloody sucks when you have unreasonable parents. Kill me then! why bother giving birth to me in the first place ? Why bring me out to this world to suffer ? I speculate i did alot of wrong doings in my past life. This is my retribution and i'm just beginning to get a taste of it. But hey look, i respected you. I kept quiet long enough before i lost my temper. Give me a break.
Feb 25th
..........
Saw a particular someone during my peaceful swim. Saw him looked at my direction.
Waited for KY to message me the whole day :( texted him around 3plus but he fell asleep after his second text. Not sure if i'm falling for *ahem* but he is a very nice guy. end here. nights
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