Days without You

i am really very very very very very very very very very sad.
okay main reason is because im bad at dancing.
like during afternoon was pretty much alright though im quite slow.
manage to learn new stuff.
didnt really dare to dance because beef was there.
i mean his presence sort of made me have that i-dont-want-to-embarrass-myself sorta thing.
but then i did well considering the fact that i've never really done hiphop before.
the last hiphop i did was in esplanade during kcp days and that was really basic.

but during dc's dance practice, i really looked down on myself.
i cannot seem to do anything properly.
especially the fucking altitude turn.
i cant even find my CG.
how to turn ?!?!?!
and i cant even seem to place my hands in the right position.
my foot is sickled.
it wasnt because i was tired.
i am not a single bit tired.
until that idiotic turn.
really damn pissed.
and the people.
really damn retarded ok.
i was seriously unhappy.
cheeseng doing his turns and awesome handstands made me even unhappier. (but it kinda motivated me to learn better)

nevermind.
i think a tired lulu is an angry lulu.
best go sleep.
lesson starts at 8 !!!!!

i need someone to massage me.


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