Days without You

i have failed myself.

self-discipline?
procrastinating is what im best at.

i should have more self-control !
this is my life.
i should have better control over it !

i will try my very best to improve the situation.
and yes.
i shall not just speak but show it.
i will control my pocket, my passion, my studies, my future and my present.
i must not repeat the same mistake over and over again.
and most importantly, not dwell on the past.
whats over cannot be undone.
once is enough.
just let it be the first and the last time.

i will make full use of the one and a half years i still have in poly.
shall work towards my bright future.
together with my family, dick and my beloved friends.




To dick:
thank you for listening (though i know i dont speak much of my own feelings), advising me on whatever is best for me, how i should react and what i should do when something goes wrong. giving me the support that i need.
and whenever im helpless, i know i can turn to you (esp during the time of production when i kept flaring up for no reason, throwing tantrums, crying almost every single day).
and your willingness to give me the constant attention and love that i need.
always being there without needing me to tell you to do so.
why i should love myself and be contented with what i have.
hearing me out and tolerating my mood swings.
explaining to me the wrong/right decisions that i made.
how i should move on and not be pessimistic, never giving up on me, on our relationship.
etc.etc.

you're incomparable.
i have accustomed myself to your voice, your physical self, your love.
i have accustomed myself to you.
thank you b.
i want to put a smile on to your face every single moment we are together.
:)