Days without You

1st day without You

How are you today? I woke up at 11 this morning. The whole night I was shivering because I got so accustomed to the warmth you provided me for the 3weeks that I’ve slept with you. I packed my table and cupboard yesterday! I also wrote down a to-do list to remind myself of the things that I need to do or buy :) I also re did the timetable for school and pasted on my wall. Hmmm let me first talk about yesterday after you took the bus then continue with today’s happenings :)

 I controlled myself all the way to the bus stop and kept holding back the tears. My family then called me and I told them you left. Like you said, I told daddy not to fetch you and that you can cab home by yourself but I guess it fell upon deaf ears yeah. While in the bus I couldn’t hold it back anymore and cried. Went to the bank to withdraw $50 then while walking home it was so cold I started to think about how I would put my hand in the pocket of your hoodie or the back pocket of your jeans. I already miss you and I cried even more again. Went back and bathed then Maureen came into my room to ask me if I was okay. I put up a brave front and lied that I was alright but deep down I was hoping she will go sleep so I could cry my heart out. Started to use the computer and then saw your message :) glad to know you safely reached the airport. At least I was relieved to see your message but my heart ached even more when I saw your message that you miss me :’( continued to be online so that I could see your message quickly. Chatted with my close friends and told them I was lonely and crying because you went back. Chatted with hsinrui, xuanren, Edison and rayner. Edited some photos but the more I look at us happily smiling back to me in the photos the more it hurts. Its not like we’re breaking up but the pain is already unbearable for me. Then when I sleep its much worse because I didn’t realize that without you it would be so cold. Didn’t sleep well :(

okay I shall continue with today :) the first thing I did when I woke up was to switch on my computer to see if you sent me and offline message or anything to tell me you arrived safely in Singapore. Surprised to see that you said you slept on my bed so I kinda got the idea that my dad fetched you. after thinking of yesterday I cried once more. :( Then I got online to download my study materials. Wanted to write a diary for you but then if I were to let you see it will be quite troublesome to write on paper then type so I did and electronic diary instead :) would upload to the blog when im done with an entry. After that my mum chatted with me while I was listening to the Java lectopia so I told her I was studying. Then you talked to me :D I was on cloud nine :) I ate three pieces of cake as breakfast! The carrot, walnut and banana loaves, then Maureen came into the room and gave me this cake and said it was some Australian traditional cake. Sounded like lemmy cake or something but its chocolate and covered with coconut. The whole afternoon was spent downloading songs, listening to lecture recordings, updating my photos as much as I can. Then Maureen said she was going to iga to get stuff and that she will cook for us tonight :) we talked about you and she praised you for being able to keep your word when you said you will be quiet while you were here. She made omelette with onions, fry vegetables with carrots. I did help by chopping the onions then wash up abit. We also had baked beans, those sort in a can, and canned mushroom soup :) great and simple dinner. I think I can fry vegetables now :D

okay I think that will be it for today. Im a little long-winded :(

  I miss you.

  

“When I see your face, there’s not a thing that I would change. Cause you’re amazing just the way you are. And when you smile, my whole world stops and stares for a while. Cause you’re amazing just the way you are” – Just the way you are by Bruno Mars